fuck

i dunno ive had a really bad day....no week...no month...no year..no life!i took a lotta quizzes...i really needa bf...u know the feeling u get when ur under water after u dive and u feel like u need air and u know its so close but it feels so far but u want it and need it so bad? well thats how i feel towards needing a bf...but i am not gonna go out with a random guy cuz of it...i gotta like em..so dont call me a desprate whore..cuz im no whore! anyway heres the result to a quiz i liked.. You are pink. You are in limbo. Not pure and manipulated like white, not impure and noble like red. You are unsure of your real identity, but whatever you chose it to be, you can be it. That is your power. You change everyone you touch, and everyone remembers you. In literature, pink represents the place between heaven and hell. You are the one we will never forget. What inner color are you? [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<font [...] shirono</font>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.]i dunno ive had a really bad day....no week...no month...no year..no life!i took a lotta quizzes...i really needa bf...u know the feeling u get when ur under water after u dive and u feel like u need air and u know its so close but it feels so far but u want it and need it so bad? well thats how i feel towards needing a bf...but i am not gonna go out with a random guy cuz of it...i gotta like em..so dont call me a desprate whore..cuz im no whore! anyway heres the result to a quiz i liked..<A HREF= "http://quizilla.com/users/Shirono/quizzes/The%20inner%20color%20quiz%20(Utena%20Images)" > <IMG SRC="http://homepage.mac.com/werkers/colorquiz/youarepink.jpg"> <P>You are pink. You are in limbo. Not pure and manipulated like white, not impure and noble like red. You are unsure of your real identity, but whatever you chose it to be, you can be it. That is your power. You change everyone you touch, and everyone remembers you. In literature, pink represents the place between heaven and hell. You are the one we will never forget.</P> <P>What inner color are you? </P></A> <P><FONT SIZE= "-1"Quiz by Shirono</FONT> </P>lol, i like black and blue...but pink describes me lol...p.s i died my bangs blue..like navy blue. it looks cool.im always depressed it sucks...i needa friend.im always alone...ttyl. ~marshmellow~

life sucks

im bored as heck! i swear if theres such thing as dieing from boredom say good bye to me! but whats new im always alone! this sucks..break sucks...i have so many friends...yett none of them can ever hang...so i doubt our friendship..why do i even write in my journal no1 ever reads it..anyway...me and brandon will never be so im like crying all the time...i really LOVE him. god i just want t o die...lifes to bad to hold on to anymore.i wanna just give it all up.cut me, kill me ,lifes a joke.i wanna tie a nuse aroun my neck and hang till i choke.i wanna cut my wrists and ankles and die, whats the point of living if u only cry?i sit and cry staring blank in my head,thinking about stupid things i have said.wanting and wishing for the pain to go away.i dont know how to put into words the things i wanna say. by ~marshmellow~Kill me please..i hate my fucking life! the song im just a kid describes me...way to much...(verse 1)I woke up it was 7 I waited till 11Just to figure out that no one would call.I think I got alot of friends but I don't here from them.What's another night all alone?When your spending every day on your ownAnd here it goes ..ChorusIm just a kid and life is a nighmareIm just a kid and i know that it's not fairnobody cares cause im alone and the world is havin' more fun then me......tonight(verse 2)And maybe when the night is dead I'll crawl into my bed I'm stairing at these 4 walls again I'll try to think about the last timeI had a good time , eveyones got somewhere to goAnd their gonna leave me here on my ownAnd here it goes (chorus)Im just a kid and life is a nighmareIm just a kid and i know that it's not fairnobody cares cause im alone and the world is havin' more fun then me What the fuck is wrong with me?Don't fit in with anybody How did this happen to me?Wide awake im bored and I can't fall asleepAnd everynight is the worst night everIm just a kid.....Im just a kid.....Im just a kid.....yah im just a kid.....and im just a kid....Im just a kid and life is a nightmareIm just a kid and i know that its not fareNo body cares cause im alone and the world is ..nobody wants to be alone and the worldIm just a kid and life is a nightmareIm just a kid and i know that it's not fairNo bodycares cause im alone and the world isnobody wants to be alone in the worldNobody cares cause im alone in the world ishavin' more fun than me...tonightIm all alone ...tonightnobody cares tonightcause im just a kid..tonight

im bored

wth i took this quiz and i got shane west..i only saw him in a walk to remember but i dunno, hes not really cute, his personalities ok i guess. Your Dream Guy is Shane West!The guy who writes little love poems and sends roses.This sweetie is perfect for a hopeless romantic like you!Who is your Dream Guy?(by *Crazy Dannielle*)anyway im bored as heck and depressed as heck...every1 is gonna know anyway but i like brandon decker...he dont like me cuz he likes someone else and i was kinda mean to him but i didnt mean to be..like its the way i am when i like someone..when i was in kindergarten i liked chris creed and i dumped my milk on his head, and stole his paste cup and ate it....lol. i was a weird lil kid..but im still little. lol..and i guess im weird but more crazy than weird...lol me and emily cooper are sisters cuz the devil is both our dads..lol. were both satinist..lol..here my poem to brandon...ur in my heart, u r my soulOf me ur a part, u make me wholeu hold my pleasures n deepest joys2 me ur a treasure, ur not like other boysI cry at night Thinkin bout uI know no matter how hard I fightTheres nothin I can doi thought i wanted to die, just pass away,but theres something bout u that made me stay.u taught me not everythings as it appears,ppl can b the key to ur happiness or ur worst fears.If I could have just one wishn if tha wish would come trueOut of the whole sea of fishI could finally catch u.comment no1 ever does so plz do!!!! ima poor lil hobbit, give me a bag a gold! gold to me is my friends...there what keep me a live..and brandon..i couldnt live without him..i think i LOVE him..litterally i think about him all the time, and im so happy when im around him, he makes me feel good about myself...yah a miracle eh?

hi again

woops i accedentally put the quiz results on twice...o well. god i hate valentines day. im always alone, it sucks ass. god i love ******* ****** his initials are the same as mine...i asked him out but he said no cuz im mean to him...which i did kinda accedently slam his fingers in his locker and gave him bloody knuckles like 3 weeks ago...but anyway...shut up it was and ACCEDENT!!!!!!! god im such an idiot...depression sucks ass, so does being single...i really needa bf but i dont want know one but him, he's so sweet, and nice, and funny, and cute...sorry im ranting...god i hate myself....i hate guys....all cept him, how can i be mad at him. ahhhh im driving myself insane...but i cant stop thinking about him everytime i say something it turns into me mentioning something about him, and everytime i think it always turns out to be about him...like today i was like theres nothing on, then i was like if i went out with him maybe we could go see a movie....then when i was trying to figure out if gabi got her carnation from me it turned out me thinking, i should have got him one, and wouldnt it be great if i got one from him?...god i hate myself, i used to tell everyone theres no such thing as love, but then i met him..yah kinda gay...heres my favorite quote of love, u prolly heard it in a walk to remember...Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Another good one is Know who you are and do it on purpose. im making a poem ill post it later.

part of my entry for today

im bored so i took some quizzes such as discover your inner candy heart @ stvlive.com and i got discover your inner candy heart @ stvlive.comill continue my entry seperately.

woopsie!

woopsy i 4got to say if u dont know who legolas is ur a dumbass he's my backround!....hes hott! you should see him in the movies he saves everyones ass all the time. and he has like the best aim out of any elf! damn dude id make out with an elf..most of em are hott blue eyes, blong hair, strong, sensative, love poetry...man i think im a mix between a hobbit and a elf! lmao! did u know this could have happened before? elves dwarves hobbits ect! goddamn if i lived in that time id move to rivendale or better where legolas lives in the woods hes a wood elf! hes actually a prince! and a fucking hott prince! damn man im obsessed with lord of the rings and legolas! well g2g bye!

hell yah!

hell yah i took this test! Which LotR Male are You Compatible with Sexually? brought to you by Quizillaand i got legolas hes so hott....the thing says you go for looks and your love has to reflect this-indeed, the ideal man as perfect as you can get,and what can get more perfect than an elf?in bed you demand exactly what you desire and nothing less can do. beauty and skill combined in and out the bedroom melts you, but don't be so far reaching that you either come across as shallow or demanding. lmao! i dont think ill be in bed with someone for a looong time im waiting till im married..or gonna try to!lmao! he is so fucking hot! n e wayz! i had a awesome day! call me im bored lmao! bye bye luv yaz! ~marshmellow~