heres some 12 stones pics

i like 12 stones so heres some pics...lol look blue hair like me!!!

still in love

im so still in love with bryan...if ur reading this i know i was a bitch im so sorry...i know i dont deserve for u to take me back but please...i dedicate the song by evanescence and paul mccoy from 12 stones..bring me to life...to you...Bring Me To LifeHow can you see into my eyes like open doors leading you down into my corewhere I've become so numb? Without a soul; my spirit's sleeping somewhere cold, until you find it there and lead it back home. (Wake me up.) Wake me up inside. (I can't wake up.) Wake me up inside. (Save me. )Call my name and save me from the dark. (Wake me up. )Bid my blood to run. (I can't wake up. )Before I come undone. (Save me. )Save me from the nothing I've become.Now that I know what I'm without you can't just leave me. Breathe into me and make me real. Bring me to life. (Wake me up.) Wake me up inside. (I can't wake up.) Wake me up inside. (Save me. )Call my name and save me from the dark. (Wake me up. )Bid my blood to run. (I can't wake up. )Before I come undone. (Save me. )Save me from the nothing I've become.Bring me to life. I've been living a lie There's nothing inside. Bring me to life. Frozen inside without your touch, without your love, darling. Only you are the life among the dead. All of this sight I can't believe I couldn't see Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me I've been sleeping a 1000 years it seems. I've got to open my eyes to everything. Without a thought Without a voice Without a soul Don't let me die here There must be something more. Bring me to life.(Wake me up.) Wake me up inside. (I can't wake up.) Wake me up inside. (Save me. )Call my name and save me from the dark. (Wake me up. )Bid my blood to run. (I can't wake up. )Before I come undone. (Save me. )Save me from the nothing I've become.Bring me to life. I've been living a lie There's nothing inside.Bring me to lifeBryan im nothing...u deserve the world not trash...but i still love you and will probly never stop. i have still loved u ever since we broke up...and i only broke up with u because i couldnt take people teasing me..but i cant let people change me..or my mind...i cant let people bring me down or corrupt me....to everyone else who thinks that im a bull shitter and that im just desprate like i know 3 people think...FUCK YOU!...u were probly the one who got me to the point where i couldnt stand the teasing! im out for now..i had a pretty good day...i went for a 2 hr. walk...im gonna try and do it every day until the beggining of 8th grade...if i can... till high school! peace..

lol what u think???

what u think of my new journal layout???? o well...i wrote some poems for inese...she is prolly one of my only true friends..i know i can trust her with anything..man if i murdered someone id be able to trust her with it...i havent tho...the only person id even try to murder is myself. i dunno...inese posted the poems in her journal if u wanna see them...i think im gettin better at em...i definately know im going deeper. ive written poems about things u guys didnt even know i thought about..i found out that i think i still love bryan...i still have the card he gave me for my birthday..it said on the front: hi its just me inside: the person who loves u more than anyone else in the world.....he was so sweet..only reason i broke up with him was cuz ppl teased me...i wont let people get to me anymore, or ill try...god i was such a bitch...he was so sweet...i dont deserve him...he deserves the world not a piece of trash. i watched jackass, 8 mile, and mr.deeds today...tomorrow im gonna watch the ring and my big fat greek wedding...ttyl...peace...o yeah! i got that sweet home alabama song stuck in my head cuz of 8 mile lol!

man o man

what a day..like a tree fell in between my next door neighbors and their neighbors house! its a huge tree too...almost hit my diagnal neighbors house! freaky there were branches everywhere! i didnt go outside AT ALL today i swear closest i got to being outside was on my screened in porch for like 2 seconds! man if u can call me please do my numbers in my profile and prolly on my away message! ill try and update more....lol me and ashley conger talked for like 4 hours today on the phone! it was freaky! and then i watched tv and sat on the comp the rest of the day...tipical weekend other than the phone thing...im always alone! i havent hung out with a friend since when i went over to ellens and that was only for the night...we hung out for like 2 hrs passed out woke up at 10:30 then i went home....god life sucks...o well!

wow been a long time

its been a long time since i updated....o well...so a lot has been goin on...not gonna sell my sp av and gob ticks no more..my mom and her friend are going..lol women in their 40's at a pop concert...yeah i have decided...i do not like simple plan or good charlotte anymore now that i have discovered finch i realize their posers! hmmm...i am not sure if i like brandon anymore....well as a friend...i think i loved him so much as a friend that i thought i loved him..u know love love...but no...yeah go ahead call me a liar julia..i heard ur tone of voice and attitude when i told u....anyway....ummm depressed as usual...i swallowed a entire tums container this weekend...only thing i could find...yeah tums dont kill u...darnet..o well...i have discovered that i will never be able to kill myself...im too chicken...and i have people that love me..my friends, family.....i feel like that somewhere in the future that i am needed..i know weird but u know i got the feeling and im not gonna lie...a lot of my friends i think might have abandoned me..i dunno...inese is mad at me cuz i label ppl too often...o well...people hate me..i always screw up..o well...thats life...i actually am trying not to care about anything...its verry relaxing...i fell asleep in social studies again...i also blacked out and fell off my chair in the middle of playin a song in orchestra..lol but painful.....yeah i feel like crap...homework, school, friendships, relationships, LIFE god so depressing just the thought....yeah...god why do i bother not like anyone reads this anyway what like 2 ppl... julia and inese are the only ones i know of...o well...i guess i still will update..I LOVE FINCH! yeah they are the best. peace out all...talk to me or call me...my number is prolly on my away message.

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wow long time

wow its been a long time since i posted...here ill catch you up...i absolutely know that brandon decker is in fact THE ONE. i love him, for once in my life i really know what love is. he is so...so...perfect. no matter how hard i try u will never know what im talking about, it cannot be explained with words how much i love him. if my cousin or someone is reading this they probly know his older brother, i dont care who knows i love him! this is one time i wont be able to get over someone. i will probly never love anyone else and i probly am not going to go out with, marry, or anything with anyone unless its him...i would be thinking about him the whole time and if i went to try and marry someone else (when im older duh!) id probly be like "i take thee brandon, i mean i mean....o shit! and run away. lol, its not funny but im laughing. im obsessed! anywayz..me and gabi are cool now, for awhile, sorta...and im having a pretty good life other than the fact brandon doesnt like me...bassically normal life with a few exceptions...i fractured my ankle as everyone knows like a week or two ago...i get my cast off on josh c's/h's birthday lol! and thats a day before my brother joshes birthday! watch..josh c/jc, josh d******/ jd..dont wanna give away my last name, and watch march 26 is josh c's b-day, march 27 is josh d's lol! my brothers a 1 behind in initial and birthdate. anywayz...i cant wait till summer! i cant wait till may! but a big big bummer is i have to sell my simple plan tickets because the concert is on the same day as festival for orchestra! o well...i got like 90 offers for em. man o man im bored talk to me online!!!!! LOVE YOU FOREVER BRANDON!!! lol BD brandon D BD brittany D lol! it was meant to be lol! love ya brandon, peace out everyone!

elenas

hi ive been at elenas..yes! finally someone actually shows me their my friend instead of just saying they are..yes gabi i know ur prolly reading this but to anyone else..on may 10th im going to that avril lavigne, simple plan, and gob concert...i hate avril but i love simple plan and i like gob. well me and gabi have been in a looot of fights lately..its like she changed. i feel like were not best friends anymore like she doesnt need me to be anymore. she always hangs with sarah b n a lotta other ppl, but she can neva hang with me. well sarah for some reason acts like she hates me! if i talk to her its like she doesnt care what i have to say, like in the movies when a loser talks to a popular kid n they give them that look like of why are u talking to me, i hope no one sees me talking to them it might ruin my rep. thats bullshit! i know im not no geek, i have a lotta friends! and me and her used to be great friends but lately it seems everything and everyone is changing! wtf is up! i dont know who to trust anymore, or who are my real friends anymore! im so fucking confused and frusturated i feel like shit! im blowing up over little things! what the fuck is wrong with me! i always feel like shit! im stuck in hell or something!maybe when it hits may itll be better for awhile! may is gonna be the best month! sp concert on the 10th, my birthday the 16th, gabi's b-day the 25th, and sometime during that month im going to festival with orchestra. i g2g, talk 2 me online or call me. ~marshmellow~

tight

today im taking a bunch of quizzes for the heck of it..im bored as usual.U ARE A FREAK! Are U a freak? brought to you by Quizillalol and the pic is tight ask me and ill show it to u..ill ttyl...call me or something cuz im bored as fuck..like always..this break is gonna suck if no1 call..guess im lookin forward to a sucky break.n e way..peace. ~marshmellow~

fuck

i dunno ive had a really bad day....no week...no month...no year..no life!i took a lotta quizzes...i really needa bf...u know the feeling u get when ur under water after u dive and u feel like u need air and u know its so close but it feels so far but u want it and need it so bad? well thats how i feel towards needing a bf...but i am not gonna go out with a random guy cuz of it...i gotta like em..so dont call me a desprate whore..cuz im no whore! anyway heres the result to a quiz i liked.. You are pink. You are in limbo. Not pure and manipulated like white, not impure and noble like red. You are unsure of your real identity, but whatever you chose it to be, you can be it. That is your power. You change everyone you touch, and everyone remembers you. In literature, pink represents the place between heaven and hell. You are the one we will never forget. What inner color are you? [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<font [...] shirono</font>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.]i dunno ive had a really bad day....no week...no month...no year..no life!i took a lotta quizzes...i really needa bf...u know the feeling u get when ur under water after u dive and u feel like u need air and u know its so close but it feels so far but u want it and need it so bad? well thats how i feel towards needing a bf...but i am not gonna go out with a random guy cuz of it...i gotta like em..so dont call me a desprate whore..cuz im no whore! anyway heres the result to a quiz i liked..<A HREF= "http://quizilla.com/users/Shirono/quizzes/The%20inner%20color%20quiz%20(Utena%20Images)" > <IMG SRC="http://homepage.mac.com/werkers/colorquiz/youarepink.jpg"> <P>You are pink. You are in limbo. Not pure and manipulated like white, not impure and noble like red. You are unsure of your real identity, but whatever you chose it to be, you can be it. That is your power. You change everyone you touch, and everyone remembers you. In literature, pink represents the place between heaven and hell. You are the one we will never forget.</P> <P>What inner color are you? </P></A> <P><FONT SIZE= "-1"Quiz by Shirono</FONT> </P>lol, i like black and blue...but pink describes me lol...p.s i died my bangs blue..like navy blue. it looks cool.im always depressed it sucks...i needa friend.im always alone...ttyl. ~marshmellow~

life sucks

im bored as heck! i swear if theres such thing as dieing from boredom say good bye to me! but whats new im always alone! this sucks..break sucks...i have so many friends...yett none of them can ever hang...so i doubt our friendship..why do i even write in my journal no1 ever reads it..anyway...me and brandon will never be so im like crying all the time...i really LOVE him. god i just want t o die...lifes to bad to hold on to anymore.i wanna just give it all up.cut me, kill me ,lifes a joke.i wanna tie a nuse aroun my neck and hang till i choke.i wanna cut my wrists and ankles and die, whats the point of living if u only cry?i sit and cry staring blank in my head,thinking about stupid things i have said.wanting and wishing for the pain to go away.i dont know how to put into words the things i wanna say. by ~marshmellow~Kill me please..i hate my fucking life! the song im just a kid describes me...way to much...(verse 1)I woke up it was 7 I waited till 11Just to figure out that no one would call.I think I got alot of friends but I don't here from them.What's another night all alone?When your spending every day on your ownAnd here it goes ..ChorusIm just a kid and life is a nighmareIm just a kid and i know that it's not fairnobody cares cause im alone and the world is havin' more fun then me......tonight(verse 2)And maybe when the night is dead I'll crawl into my bed I'm stairing at these 4 walls again I'll try to think about the last timeI had a good time , eveyones got somewhere to goAnd their gonna leave me here on my ownAnd here it goes (chorus)Im just a kid and life is a nighmareIm just a kid and i know that it's not fairnobody cares cause im alone and the world is havin' more fun then me What the fuck is wrong with me?Don't fit in with anybody How did this happen to me?Wide awake im bored and I can't fall asleepAnd everynight is the worst night everIm just a kid.....Im just a kid.....Im just a kid.....yah im just a kid.....and im just a kid....Im just a kid and life is a nightmareIm just a kid and i know that its not fareNo body cares cause im alone and the world is ..nobody wants to be alone and the worldIm just a kid and life is a nightmareIm just a kid and i know that it's not fairNo bodycares cause im alone and the world isnobody wants to be alone in the worldNobody cares cause im alone in the world ishavin' more fun than me...tonightIm all alone ...tonightnobody cares tonightcause im just a kid..tonight

im bored

wth i took this quiz and i got shane west..i only saw him in a walk to remember but i dunno, hes not really cute, his personalities ok i guess. Your Dream Guy is Shane West!The guy who writes little love poems and sends roses.This sweetie is perfect for a hopeless romantic like you!Who is your Dream Guy?(by *Crazy Dannielle*)anyway im bored as heck and depressed as heck...every1 is gonna know anyway but i like brandon decker...he dont like me cuz he likes someone else and i was kinda mean to him but i didnt mean to be..like its the way i am when i like someone..when i was in kindergarten i liked chris creed and i dumped my milk on his head, and stole his paste cup and ate it....lol. i was a weird lil kid..but im still little. lol..and i guess im weird but more crazy than weird...lol me and emily cooper are sisters cuz the devil is both our dads..lol. were both satinist..lol..here my poem to brandon...ur in my heart, u r my soulOf me ur a part, u make me wholeu hold my pleasures n deepest joys2 me ur a treasure, ur not like other boysI cry at night Thinkin bout uI know no matter how hard I fightTheres nothin I can doi thought i wanted to die, just pass away,but theres something bout u that made me stay.u taught me not everythings as it appears,ppl can b the key to ur happiness or ur worst fears.If I could have just one wishn if tha wish would come trueOut of the whole sea of fishI could finally catch u.comment no1 ever does so plz do!!!! ima poor lil hobbit, give me a bag a gold! gold to me is my friends...there what keep me a live..and brandon..i couldnt live without him..i think i LOVE him..litterally i think about him all the time, and im so happy when im around him, he makes me feel good about myself...yah a miracle eh?

hi again

woops i accedentally put the quiz results on twice...o well. god i hate valentines day. im always alone, it sucks ass. god i love ******* ****** his initials are the same as mine...i asked him out but he said no cuz im mean to him...which i did kinda accedently slam his fingers in his locker and gave him bloody knuckles like 3 weeks ago...but anyway...shut up it was and ACCEDENT!!!!!!! god im such an idiot...depression sucks ass, so does being single...i really needa bf but i dont want know one but him, he's so sweet, and nice, and funny, and cute...sorry im ranting...god i hate myself....i hate guys....all cept him, how can i be mad at him. ahhhh im driving myself insane...but i cant stop thinking about him everytime i say something it turns into me mentioning something about him, and everytime i think it always turns out to be about him...like today i was like theres nothing on, then i was like if i went out with him maybe we could go see a movie....then when i was trying to figure out if gabi got her carnation from me it turned out me thinking, i should have got him one, and wouldnt it be great if i got one from him?...god i hate myself, i used to tell everyone theres no such thing as love, but then i met him..yah kinda gay...heres my favorite quote of love, u prolly heard it in a walk to remember...Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Another good one is Know who you are and do it on purpose. im making a poem ill post it later.

part of my entry for today

im bored so i took some quizzes such as discover your inner candy heart @ stvlive.com and i got discover your inner candy heart @ stvlive.comill continue my entry seperately.

woopsie!

woopsy i 4got to say if u dont know who legolas is ur a dumbass he's my backround!....hes hott! you should see him in the movies he saves everyones ass all the time. and he has like the best aim out of any elf! damn dude id make out with an elf..most of em are hott blue eyes, blong hair, strong, sensative, love poetry...man i think im a mix between a hobbit and a elf! lmao! did u know this could have happened before? elves dwarves hobbits ect! goddamn if i lived in that time id move to rivendale or better where legolas lives in the woods hes a wood elf! hes actually a prince! and a fucking hott prince! damn man im obsessed with lord of the rings and legolas! well g2g bye!

hell yah!

hell yah i took this test! Which LotR Male are You Compatible with Sexually? brought to you by Quizillaand i got legolas hes so hott....the thing says you go for looks and your love has to reflect this-indeed, the ideal man as perfect as you can get,and what can get more perfect than an elf?in bed you demand exactly what you desire and nothing less can do. beauty and skill combined in and out the bedroom melts you, but don't be so far reaching that you either come across as shallow or demanding. lmao! i dont think ill be in bed with someone for a looong time im waiting till im married..or gonna try to!lmao! he is so fucking hot! n e wayz! i had a awesome day! call me im bored lmao! bye bye luv yaz! ~marshmellow~

TURKEY!!!!!!!!

god i have the weirdest combination of moods....i feel loving, on the verge of tears, depressed, happy, jumpy, hungry, and pissed...the thing is i dont know why im depressed or pissed or happy!...I LOVE **** ******** and now i know his middle name!!! heres his full name including full first name ******* ****** ******** lol!!! ha ha u cant see! i like 3 ppl..one person, like everyone knows, the other person..a scattered few, and another i have only told elena, and that was today in last hour (math)...im cold, stupid ice water! *takes another drink*! i dunno whats with me i am kinda behaving like ashley conger....someone slap me! *slap* dang it dont work if u slap urself....ahhhh. anywho..happy valentines day, dang i wish i had someone to share it with :-( i wish he loved me back! i love all of them! but ******* ****** ******** the most!!!! well see ya'll at school! now im a hillbilly ya'll ya'll lmao!!! n e wayz love u all ******* the most! g2 fly! well not really fly but u know! outtie!

i dunno

man o man i have made a lotta poems lately..all about love...i really needa guy! most guys are so shallow...girls have to be bone skinny and wear preppy cloths or else guys dont like em....heres my 2 poems...love is found in so many places, it brings joy to so many faces.if only i had someone to love me, what a valentines day it'd be.tell me you guys, what can i do!? what about me keeps me from being with you? if its my looks then your awefully low, if its not that, tell me what it is. id really love to know! and heres my other onea day of love for everyone, it seems that what its all about.a time where everyone is happy, with one they love with no doubt.sweethearts together, love is in the air,but some people are lonely with nobody to care.the day is just normal, they spend it all on their own,watching tv or staring off into their own zone.wishing and waiting for that one special someone,some will sit and wait forever and never have fun.you need to live life to its fullest as they say,you need to give thanks that ur living each day.you'll never get anywhere just sitting and waitingsomeone is waiting for you, so get out and get dating. yah both are kinda gay but o well im a ammiture! o god i really hope i get a carnation from someone...o who am i kidding, what guy likes me?yah i know im depressing..fuck life it all sucks. well most of it.ttyl.

i may be blond, but i am smart, so i must be brunette at heart

like my new quote? its at the top as the title if ur blind it is i may be blond, but i am smartso i must be brunette at heart. lol! i made it up! ne wayz i only got grammar hw!!! yay!! man im bored..no1 can ever hang!!! :-( !! if u want to hang call me!! if u dont know the number call gabi,elena,ashley,jake, or any of my other friends!! happy valentines day in advance...i want a guy to send me a carnation..that'd make me so happy! they wouldnt have to even put who its from!!! n e way im in a loving mood and i dont know why! i guess its the valentines day feeling setting in! o well! luv to all my friends!!! ~marshmellow~

Let me go, Have some fun, Well my decisions sucks yeah, But I'm so young,

good charlotte rules!!!!!!!!!!!!! their music makes me feel good every time i listen to it!!! heres the lyrics to my favorite song..hold on.Hold OnThis world, this world is coldBut you don't, you don't have to goYou're feeling sad you're feeling lonelyAnd no one seems to careYou're mother's gone and your father hits youThis pain you cannot bareBut we all bleed the same way as you doWe all have the same things to go thruHold on...if you feel like letting goHold on...it gets better than you knowYour days you say they're way too longAnd your nights you can't sleep at all (hold on)And you're not sure what you're looking forBut you don't want to no moreAnd you're not sure what you're waiting for but you don't want to no moreBut we all bleed the same way as you doAnd we all have the same things to go throughHold on...if you feel like letting goHold on...it gets better than you knowDon't stop looking you're one step closerDon't stop searching it's not over...hold onWhat are you looking for?What are you waiting for?Do you know what you're doing to me?Go ahead...what are you waiting for?Hold on...if you feel like letting goHold on...it gets better than you knowDon't stop looking you're one step closerDon't stop searching it's not over...Hold on...if you feel like letting goHold on...it gets better than you know...hold onu gotta love that song!!!!!!! anywayz i had a great day...barely any homework, only thing that sucks is that we have the meap tomorrow, and its writing..yucky!! i may be good at it but my hearts with poems! such as this one which is my 3rd favorite of all my poems:if i had a wish id wish you were here to hug me o so tight. i need your warmth to sooth me so i can sleep tonight. i need to feel your tender touch and feel your gentle kiss.. i love you so much i need to tell you this. ill see you off in dreamland it'll be a merry time. my love for you makes me so happy, it even makes me rhyme. well thats it 4 me i g2g c yaz bye!!!!!

weekend

O god im dreading school tomorrow! i dont wanna go back! i went to work with my mom yesterday and today..she works at the jc penny hair salon at twelve oaks. it was fun..today i redied my bangs..there two different colors...hard to explain ull see. my dinner was awesome...bacon and peperoni pizza with buffalo chicken kickers and domino's dots....the dominos dots are pretty good. there kinda like apple dumplings without the apple. anywayz i miss **** my crush...his full name is ******* and No it is NOT josh casebolt or any josh...it may fit but no. man im so bored...i feel weird, for some reason ive been happy. ttyl. ~marshmellow~

yo

whats up im so weird feeling! i havent felt this way in awhile...what am i looking for....o yah happy! yes its true i am happy! hey gabi ur sis is fun to talk to..anyway..i dont know where to start uh today was a good day, somewhat...me and jon dawisha were the first ones in the class to figure out the equation in math lol actually i found it out but we were working together if thats what u can call it...i feel so smart! i am smart! i like this feelin! im gonna say screw my problems i need to be happy! i think u guys are gonna see a change in me! omg i think its hold on by good charlotte that got me like this...eitha that or talking to amanda gabis sis..we had a verry fun convo! her mood rubbed off on me.lol. cheerleaders! hehe! i wanna go run around in the dark for some reason it seems fun..i wish it were summer then i could hang with all my friends! and we could play ghost in the graveyard i love that game but no1 ever wants to play! anyway talk to me online c yaz! ~marshmellow~

hi..

man im so bored...school was ok...i totally dont understand the math tho..lol. i almost fell asleep in 3 of my classes...i was 1/2 asleep in science.lol. i dont know what to write...ttyl..ill be online.

im bored

i gotta layout but it sucks i want to make my backround legolas! but i dont know how if anyone can help me plz im me at moogirl21!!! im desprate!!

my first entry!!!!!

today i got my first live journal yay! i can finally right down something thats not in my crappy u journal! if anyone knows how to make a layout so i can make my backround lord of the rings thank u and plz help me im me at moogirl21!!!! anyway, im prolly gonna have some of my poems in here sometimes, ill update periodically, ttyl, ~marshmellow~